Its a bit odd to be starting back on a blog you ceased to think existed. None the less, I, the CRAZYAFG is back to indulge on the fruits of xanga. Life since I have last left you all with anything has been a bit discerning, but like a trooper I always seem to pick up where I've left off. Life has taken on a new persona. Hardships, as always, have become daily nuisances. Friendships seem to live only within the memories of the days in which they seemed special. And the question I am always left asking, is what else is there? (Sigh) "What is there to say about being in college that would separate one college student from another?," I ask. Nothing really. I think I made some bad choices while in High School, and like some High School alumni I just wish I could do it over again. Not for the teenage nonsense that everyone associates it with, but just to do better academically. (Sigh, again) I'm sure that everyone thinks that college is life changing experience, but I have to yet to see what's so life changing about it. I still have to deal with same BS that I did before I entered this place....Enough with my cynicism.

I am in anticipation of  quite a few things, some of which are short term, and others which will HOPEFULLY be short term.

Short Term:

Feb. 3 2006-  End of first week of classes (WOO HOO)

Feb. 14 2006- Maybe, justttt maybe I will have a real valentine. And ill apologize before hand, but valentines you get from friends pretending to be that one guy u've been lusting after for light years, don't really count. I am talking about some "dude" that totally "digs" you and gives this life changing card ( or anything for that matter) that totally melts your heart.

Mar 2-4  2006- My sisters wedding production.(Emphasis on production) I really don't get why some people go through such an effort to pull of this "fairy tale" wedding. Why bother to put on a show for other people? A wedding is one night. I really don't understand our generation's fixation with this whole concept. No one really remembers the color of the flowers or the other table fixtures. People just go eat, and criticize the entire ordeal once they leave. What's the excitement in knowing that you are about to sign the rest of your existence away? I'm sorry but it just aint my thang.

Hopefully Short term:

(Date Unknown)- Re-aquatinting myself with all the wonderful people from High School.

(Date Unknown)- Successfully transfer out of my school.

(Date Unknown)- Finding a dress for my sister's night of alleged bliss.

Life sux i hate it,

GOOD BYE

Wow, it has been a while...School gradually becomes better, as I realize that there are less than 90 days left! I have noticed that online always let the inhibitions of people to be released.And i guess, that is the reason why so many strangers im me and tell me that they have had crushes on me since childhood.(Very sad, yet true) The person im talking about specifically, i have known since i was about 6, imagine the nicest greenish-bluish eyes, well, he has them. He was always such an asshole to my sisters and I, and for that reason I was so surprised. If you guys didnt Kow yet, me and my sisters we're lil munchkins back in the day, and we were scared shytless from him, because he used to play scary pranks on us. Well, i don care about drug addicts lik him.

RAther than being concerned with losers, im concerned with school, and my future. Im so sad that when we all graduate that we wont be as tite as were are now. I dont know about you guys, but i hope i dont become hysterical on graduation. I rememeber the first day of kindergarden, all them asian kids crying cuz they wanted to be with their mommy haha....yeh well, thas life, before you know it we'll all be senior citizens wearing diapers, not remembering what our names are haha              UFFF Chingy is so hot!!!!!!!!!

Its almost New Years, and its so clishe(god damn im so bad at spelling) to have a new years resolution, but nonetheless heres mine:

For many people, including myself, self-expression is something very difficult. Many people may not know this, but truly its hard for me discuss what i have on my mind. But you know what, THIS YEAR WILL BE DIFFERNT!!! Every little shyt I have on my mind i will speak, no matter if anyone will give a damn! This year i will have a clear mind, so that little things wont eat at me later on. Everyone reading this is probably saying,"Wow this girl must be smokin some crazy azz shyt", but come on think about it. Imagine yourself being 50, and your youthful years are behind you, and there was something you really wanted to say to someone or do something that you never had the chance to do, and you say to yourself "oh i wish i did this". That is exactly what i dont want happenning to me, so im going to be the most blunt and bold bitch of the year, watch out!, cuz this is the year i have nothing in life to hold me down.

Wow i must be pyscho, i knoe ill look back on this entry saying to myself, what the hell was i thinking, or maybe i wont, but for now i dont care....so adios for now.... until we meet  again....................................................